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CAMP was tiring.
it really made me think abt alot of things.
1st of all, how can u force someone to do something they don't want to?
you'd just make them detest it even more, soo then wats the point of going if u don't hav a receptive heart right?
sigh, honestly camp was not a pleasant experience for me soo many physical activities, not up my alley.
secondly the lack of sleep was a big problem, usually i have 12 hrs of sleep but in camp that was not possible due to soo many factors, the floor was hard, my sleeping bag was super thin n furthermore ppl in my bunk dont sleep early like i do.
had backaches everytime i wake.
it all seemed like a nightmare that did'nt seem to end 5days 4nites.
through this camp i've realized i'm a very secular person compared to being a religous one.
how ppl talk abt how they felt the prescence of God speaking to them showing them things.
i don't feel these kinda things, issit becos i hav a "hard" heart?
why do they experience these feelings when i don't.
that constant feeling of dread i had, the longing for home made me really appreciate my current lifestyle.
my once flawless legs are now scared for life. "yeah!"
the food during camp was GOOD. God bless whoever planned it.
atleast that kept me gig.
i'm still very tired. pretending that everything was hunky-dory made me vry tired.
anyways, its all over now. get over it cause thats life: c'est la vie

gonna get my hair done 2moro! soo egg-xiting
but idk where to do it... sigh
goodnights~