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SRJC, all for you?

JCs been hard.
1st assignment in and i'm alrdy getting low marks.
they place an immense amt of pressure on us to do this and do that.
it makes me feel like doing anything wont help,
soo in the end i just dont do anything.
why? laziness? complacency? stress?
i geniunly find that the ppl here are great but the system is soo screwed up.
how i wish i could just sleep in all day like u poly students out there.
or if there's no school: even better!
i come home wanting to rest but realize i hav homework and tests pilling up.
am i screwed?
is the only reason why i got my marks because i got the "easier" subjects?
the more the force me to hold on,
the more i feel like i'm loosing my grip, i'm startin to trip...
how far can my parents n friends help me?
they cant sit for my examinations.
all i can do is ask them for help n even then i feel like a burden to them.
all i want to do is close my eyes and nvr open my eyes.
at least when your in a state of insanity, you dont hav to care abt the world, what they think of you.
to sleep in the silent solitude of my mind.
to block out the voice of the world
to be ignorant and in bliss.